Nine years, 3,428 days, 82,295 hours later...

Hi babe. I've missed you. It's been a long time since I've seen you, laughed with you, touched you. It's been a long time since you went away.
You already know what I'm about to write... I hadn't realized what I was doing until you brought me to her, or her to me. You brought me and the light worker together. She has allowed me to see some terrible truths about myself, my defects, shortcomings, my ego and fears, parts of me I hadn't seen in a long time. I thought they had been taken from me, but I was wrong.
She has helped me grow in ways I never thought possible. Maybe it's because of what you have shared with her. Thank you for that by the way, thank you for loving her too. She has urged me to write my goodbye letter to you, I thought is was about forgiving myself. I thought the letter was all about me, I was wrong, I didn't understand until today.
She gave me your latest message. I carry guilt for your death like a cross, a burden to bear, its become my identity. I thought the burden only rested on my shoulders babe, I didn't know, I didn't understand. My guilt burdens you too. I have tied you to me through that guilt, I have kept you connected to me by refusing to live, refusing to grow and find my own serenity and happiness. I'm ready to begin my journey sweetheart.
I have to let you go. I have to give you permission to move on, to find rest, to move on along your path. You don't need to watch over me anymore Cindi. I cannot be your burden, you cannot worry about me anymore. You have Larry, you have your own destiny and path. I can't keep your soul bound to me through my guilt. I give you permission to let me go. It's okay. I'm not alone anymore, I never was, I just didn't really realize it and I didn't realize what I'd been doing to you.
Your soul is free to move forward in your own journey. You were my wife, you were the best part of my life, but that was 9 years ago. It's time for me to move on and be happy and to think about your happiness there on the other side.
I release you Mary-Cynthia Longoria. I will always love your soul, you will always be in my memory but you are not bound to watch over me. I'm not afraid anymore babe. It's okay, it's okay to let go. I promise. I love you babe and I know you love me. Thank you for all that you have been to me, in life and in death, but now its time for you to take your next step as it is with me.
I release my guilt and in doing so I release you. We will meet again someday, in that next realm or another lifetime. Thank you for bringing the light worker to me. I promise I will do my best to grow. I love you babe. Goodbye.

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